Love; Unmistakable, Divine

#MondayLetters

You see, for the most part of my life, I've been motivated to write by the many women I had fallen in love with. Believe or not, it's cliche but true.

It often started off with me penning down the way my heart thumped when I saw her walk up the hall stairs, and would continue with me and her, dancing to a tune unlike any we've heard before. According to my notes, I'd walk up to her and remind her how beautifully she lights up the dark room with her smile. I'd take her hand and gently draw her close, whispering some things my brain doesn't take note of.

My imagination was always wild and I never tried to tame it.

One thing I was sure of was that I was in love. It was unmistakable... divine. I would spend hours smiling to myself and walking around my small room. I would take extra time to properly comb my hair and apply some lotion. One thing I still can't explain though, was how I always got the same feeling whenever we meet. My heart beat would quicken and drops of sweat would trickle. And again, my lips would move, saying things my brain did not ask it to. The few times we walked, hand in hand, it was paradise. Then, I realized love gave me everything I had felt were beyond reach. Friendship, kindness, peace, compassion... Believe it or not, love made me a better person.

Love, unmistakable, divine.

Love is beautiful feeling... one I've been privileged to feel on few occasions. They say pain brings out the most in an artist but I beg to differ; pain is a powerful catalyst, yes, but for me, it’s always been love that's brought out the best in me.

Today is a day we all mark to celebrate love, and even though I feel love in any real form is too big to be framed into a day to be celebrated, I still hope we all celebrate it.

Two years ago, on this day, I stood with a lot of kids on a field and we sang till we lost our voices. Our song rang loudly beyond the cracked walls of the school, and deep within our broken hearts. I taught them that true love starts with kindness, friendship, and tranquility.

I do not know where those kids are today, but I'm glad I got to share Valentine's day with them. I'm hopeful that they will go on to talk about love to many others.

Happy Valentine's day, friend. Forgive me, if I've let you down in any way, and write to me if you need to talk about anything.

I do love you!

— Dee.